Thursday, April 21, 2011

Black Out.

For the last couple of weeks, I've been extremely cautious about all foods
that enter my body. I'm always looking at what's in food, but it's become
even more of an obsession than usual, lately.
I spoke with my boyfriend about how I have this issue with my weight.
We've been together almost 11 months now, and he's somewhat known about it, but not truly the extent to it. He doesn't understand why I think I'm fat,
because he loves me the way I am. I guess that's understandable, but he also
agrees that if I don't love myself, then I should be able to do whatever I want
in order to find that self-love, rather than self-hatred. He's all for me feeling
better about myself.
Considering all of the health issues I have been going through recently,
I was told not to start any new regimes for weight-loss which included
diet pills, but of course I did anyways. I had started to read updates from GNC,
and they had a deal on some diet pills for fat-loss called Phenorex,
so of course I went and bought some. I started taking them this past Saturday,
and while I've only lost 6 pounds, the energy I gained is incredible.
I mean, my mood hasn't been this good in so long. My parents noticed a
difference, as well as my boyfriend. He likes it because it makes me
more playful, and he said he missed my smile, so I take it that it's a good
change, even if none of them really know it's because of those pills.
I'm also taking medication for my anxiety, but I've been feeling much better
lately, and it's been quite some time since my last seizure, so I figure
it's safe to be attempting this new medication.
Anyways, today is Senior Skip Day at my school, and being a Senior, I should
be at home sleeping right now. Of course, since my boyfriend and I are
not attending prom, I figured there was no need in skipping for I had nothing
better to be doing.

And, also - I need to know what you girls are doing to really skip out
on pounds. I know fasting is helping many of you, but if you could give
me some more ideas, that would be fantastic.

Think Thin. <3